Well recently things have not gone well for me and I'm not feeling too good about.
School has been kinda rough.
Me and my mom are not on the "best of terms" right now.
One of my best friends, we kinda stopped talking.
Last weekend, my dad and his work buddies was coming into town from about 300 miles away to see the ACDC concert. Which I thought I was going to but on the day of the concert I get a call from him and saying that one of his wrok buddies had another friend. So I didnt get to go. I didnt even get to see him before he left.
Been feeling depressed, I seem to have constant headaches now. Ive had a counslor for two years. Not even that seems to help anymore.
Now just this morning, the new RPG mod was selected. I was one of the people to apply. I thought to myself I was maybe the best canidate for it but it doesnt seem that way. Now I have nothing against draco or any of the RPG team. And draco congrats btw.
But... I just feel worse now. Before they put the application up, I had a goal of becoming a RPG mod. I asked if they needed help, they thought it was a good idea but they wanted to do a sign up. I did and I also PMed my "interview". I strived for so long just to RP, its really the only area I post in. I thought because of that, being here a while, having previous experience of a mod would be enough. I guess I was wrong.
Look..the other things I said in the post may just be an excuse or acting like a sore loser.
But in anycase, Im going to take a little break from RPing. I dont know how long, but right now the way I feel I may do something stupid to hurt one of you.
I love ya guys, and this site.
I just need to cool off I guess. I'm sorry.

I might pop on just to check some stuff but I doubt I will be posting. We will see...

Aww, dude. I'm not familiar with you, but I've seen you around on the forums occasionally (obviously) and I think you're a cool guy. I've been in similar situations many times, and I won't say that it isn't hard... all i can say is hang in there, mate. We're all here for you when you come back

If you dont mind me asking... what made you decide?
I just dont understand at this point..

Daidrea, don't take us not choosing you personally. We all agreed that you have a boat-load of experience in our RPG forum, and modded a different site. We respect you, and we hope that you can continue playing with us. I was just getting used to Bahamut too lol.

But seriously, you're a great guy and a joy to be around. Just because you didn't get the promotion does not mean that you are a failure. Draco just happened to be a little better. Promise, when a new position is open, you will be on top of our list. I know I haven't discussed this with the mods, but I don't care! You have my vote when the next position becomes available!

And I know what it's like to live in a stressful house. Things will get better, they always do.

Hope to see you soon! We love ya!

I suppose I understand now. After speaking with Aeraldi, and seeing what you guys put. I guess the reason why I was more upset is with not understanding why I lost, not the loss itself. Aeraldi explained the best he could and now I know what you seek.
I will do better next time.
I'm sorry to all of you, I have been foolish. The way I posted is stupid, I can see this now after I cooled off a little bit. I'm so glad that you guys care though...so thank you.

Ironically I want to say this, its from a post I did from I RP im doing with Erais right now. My character, Daidrea had said that "Anger makes us do things we dont want to do." I never put much thought into that, I just wrote it. I guess there is some truth and meaning in it.

So again to all I apologize and I thank you. Dont worry, now that I feel better... I wont be going anywhere.


Draco, I especially apologize to you. You deserve the position. I was just sulking and should never have taken this upon the team or you. I am sorry.
So congrats and I wish you well, I know you will do a great job.